AC*celerate!

ITS MY 20TH BIRTHDAY!!!

2011-08-26T09:57:00.000-07:00

ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!
20 years old le
time is gonna fly fly fly~~
new number 2 to my age
new life, new goals, new dreams :):)
need to forget about all de unhappy and negative stuff
time to look forward to a better "alex" :)

im gonna get over you too
i'll try, no matter what

20 years has passed, i yet to achieve anything great, nothing really great...
i strive hard towards what i want, and make sure i reach them

Nevertheless----> HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

2011-06-29T02:11:00.000-07:00

right now
i would like to say how much i miss you
wondering in my brain
images of you floating around
wanting to see you so much
wanting you to tell me how you are feeling right now
seems like its gonna be a hard time trying to get you of my mind

SleepThinkWonderLoveLustSing

2011-06-28T07:15:00.000-07:00

sometimes i just wan * to be my side
it has been a long time since i felt this way
wanting to know what you are doing
thinking of what you might be thinking of
floating floating~~

how can one show disinterest to someone whom one is interested in
afraid to take the initiative
due to the fear of rejection
maintaining high levels of self-control and discipline
hope i will be able to get over it
without doing anything silly or foolish

though i know it is rather impossible for you to stay
i rather choose to be optimistic
think of the good side
remember only the good things that happened

looking at your beautiful smile
it never fails to capture my attention
always wanting to see your beautiful smiles
i do all kinds of stupid stuff just to see you smile or see you laugh
images of you smiling etched in my memory
i smile unknowingly to myself when i'm alone

SleepThinkWonderLoveLustSing

2011-06-23T08:26:00.000-07:00

i think it is time for me to start posting here again, after a longgggggggg time.
there are so many thing running in my brain now
fyp, lessons, attachment, friends, family
is there a remote control for my life?
i would love to press the "pause" button
so that everything that worries me will come to standstill

people often say, be positive in everything you do
but i do believe
these people have their downsides too
i wish i can be rid of all my fears and worries
being a happy person isn't easy at all

i feel like a complete different person now
after all that has happened around me
life is fragile, treasure it, so are the people around you
do not always think of big things
sometimes, its good to slow down the pace of life
and take a look at the small details in life that makes you smile
maybe small things can be significant too?

SLEEP THINK WONDER LOVE LUST SING

2010-08-05T00:04:00.001-07:00

Hows wills yous feels ifs someones puts an letters "s" behinds everys words hes/shes says?

2010-07-22T00:32:00.000-07:00

i learnt something new today
other than the IPA lesson
something interpersonal

ahahaha
i feel like an idiot now
never place your trust on someone who says "you can trust me"
they will end up being the one who will share all of your "trust" to everyone

made up my mind
with or without
doesn't matter anymore
think how you all think
say what you all say
you all are too dependent on each other
till you can't handle your own problems and have to ask everyone for help
i find you so weak and useless
maybe the phrase "empty vessels makes the most noise really suits you"
you say you understand this and understand that
yet you dunno when to talk and when to stop when needed
birds of a feather flocks together
i think it fits you all perfectly now
its not that i dislike you all now
just that i dun understand why the sudden change in attitude
when one person in the group has a problem
everybody focus on that one person and ignores the rest

why is everyone the same
they have problems
but dun wan to say
and expect the person to know
PYSCHIC?!?!

want to know everything
but dun tell people about yourself
selfsih :)

2010-07-20T09:36:00.001-07:00

Once upon a time ...

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind.
She hated everyone except her loving boyfriend.
He never fail to be there for her, always.
One fine day, the girl made a comment
Saying that if only she could see the world, she would marry her boyfriend, definitely.

Days later, someone donated a pair of eyes to the girl and the operation was sucessful.
She could see everything, including her boyfriend.
Her boyfriend then asked her, 'now that you can see the world, will you marry me?'
The girl was shocked. Because she saw that her boyfriend is also blind, and she refused to marry him. And eventually, asked for breakup

Her boyfriend then walked away in tears.
And later wrote a letter to the girl saying ....
'Just take care of my eyes dear, I'll leave the exploring of the world to you, And remember this, i love you, always.'

2010-07-20T09:34:00.000-07:00

was reading through the comments by the different faci
maybe i did give them an impression of a very hardworking boy
so when i decide to "slack" a little
they would say i have not been myself
or something has happened to me that caused the change
hmm hmm...

what wrong with me nowdays?
shouldn't let all those unwanted people and their crap affect me
maybe they are just jealous
how people can be just as happy in the presence of them
so they must try to destroy the balance
TIME TO GROW UP GIRL!!!

YOG preview today
HOLY GG
i was reminding JR and RB to not be nervous
yet i myself forgot the actions
IM SORRY PEOPLE, IF THAT CAUSED THE CHANCE TO NOT BE SELECTED

2010-07-20T09:11:00.000-07:00

IM SO HAPPY :)
MY GRANDMOTHER IS FINALLY DISCHARGED FROM HOSPITAL :):):)
hope my relative will take good care of her

and i had a very nice dream yesterday night, a bit impossible, but i still remembered it :)
it started like this .....

it was at some foreign place, when i had to deliver some package
and everyone in that place is armed with weapons
and i had to place this "thing" into a letter box

and suddenly, i was shot on my stomach
den become like drama
i fell to the floor, bleeding.....
out of nowhere, my mum appeared and carried me to the hospital
and i fell unconscious? (in my dreams?)
after i woke up, i saw person X by the side of my bed
in the dream, i think i was together with her, or someone very close to me
she kissed me on my forehead and told me that everything is fine (too bad is just a dream)

scene 2

i was with person Y at another place, again dangerous and armed
we were going to meet someone a rendezvous point
suddenly, encountered "enemy" and was being opened fire at (like going live firing, just that this time, i was the target)
BOOM BOOM BALALALALA!!!

den my phone alarm rang and i woke up :p
hehehehe (Y)

2010-07-15T11:34:00.000-07:00

hmm hmm
im just curious
puzzled puzzled puzzled
why is everybody like that?
maybe i should be more expressive
use of tears, emotion to convince everyone
peer pressure, what exactly is it?
"if you can't beat them, join them"
how true is this?

2010-07-09T21:07:00.000-07:00

i just got to know something today
actually, there is so much curiousity and questions inside all of you
wanting to ask me what happened and stuff
guess no one wanted to ask, but someone has to do that
well, maybe it is meant this way
people who talk the most will win
so pbl man, even in life
cry in the toilet and call someone to tell them you are crying
what are you trying to do?
totally ignore me in class, can msn me at night
want me to give you second chance to prove yourself
what you do is not the same as what you say?
can you please not showing me 2 faces?
i had enough of it!!!
lets come and talk eh?

2010-06-22T08:11:00.000-07:00

why is it so hard to find someone to love and someone who will love me?
stop being so playful, i wish that everytime i need someone to hug and talk to.
someone who will listen, encourage and support.
keeping too many things to yourself is a bad thing, it makes you feel more inferior and quiet
i wish i could just say everything that is inside me to someone, but where can i find the someone?
there are so many things i regretted doing, but was not given the chance to correct my mistakes
this is so unfair, when you love someone, you would stop at nothing to give the best for the other party, however, it really hurts when you know that she is just making use of you, playing with you and you know eventually she will go to another guy, yet you still would not give up on giving her the best.

2010-02-10T06:52:00.002-08:00

2010-02-03T14:46:00.000-08:00

time to blog about my bad, unlucky, unfortunate and really horrible incident that affect me so badly :"(

I LOST MY BAG, WITH MY LAPTOP, PSP AND ADIDAS JACKET...
WORTH MORE THAN $2K IN TOTAL
DAMN HEARTPAIN CAN :"(

this is what happened.......

i was with alison, shu hui and yx
after pool, chatting around the table
when we were about to leave, i realised that my WHOLE BAG WENT MISSING!!!
OMG!!! I ALMOST WENT CRAZY CAN!!!!
UT3 IS SOMING NEXT MON AND I BLOODY LOSE MY PRECIOUS LAPPY AT THIS TIME!!!

curse the stupid indian man that took my bag
and the shop that has CCTV for dummy use
this was what the in-charge of the shop told me
"the CCTV is not recording"
WTH!!!
the camera is there for what?
scare ghost ar?or it makes the place look nicer?decorations?
IRRESPONSIBLE!!!

well, reported to police about my lost bag
i guess nothing can be done and i'll never get my laptop back
lets just hope that the guy who took my bag would be punished
i swear and curse at him
for once, i almost went crazy over something i lost

never mind, i shall not be so reliable on technology
least i get addicted to my com and psp
bad bad bad

2010-01-25T19:14:00.000-08:00

IM SO TIREDDDD!!!

WON'T BE POSTING FOR SOME TIME :)

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2010-01-20T23:20:00.000-08:00

MATHS MATHS MATHS TODAY
dun like the subject maths
but i somehow like the way faci teach :)
combination and something about hypothesis
bad bad bad :(

we formed our own team today
same as entrepreneurship team
me, sheereen, alison, shu hui and liangyu :)
i think we make a good team :p
tired tired...so rather quiet today
and everyone asked me why i emo... -.-"
worst thing is BALLOONS IN CLASS!!!
omg, who is the crazy ass who suggested to bring that into the class!!!

home sweet home after school
omg, im like so tired after sch
especially after maths and cognitive modules
those modules which requires a lot of thinking

went out with aurina for dinner and shopping
actually wanted to shop for new years clothes de
ended up only buying a sweater at uniqlo
went to different shops to look for shirts
saw a few interesting ones
there was this shirts with this phrase on it
"i like my sugar with coffee and tea"
isn't it supposed to be the other way round? :o
*then i remembered something in marketing module, "coffee, tea or me?"
and i saw one of my classmates
though i forgot his name already
but we said hi and bye to each other...ahahaha

web and new media tomorrow
hope i can get a good team :p
go go go :)

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2010-01-19T20:06:00.000-08:00

this is how my group table will look like at 3rd meeting

2010-01-19T20:05:00.000-08:00

entrepreneurship module
all about legal rights and how to protect your own business
confusing but still managable :p

tried the module selection thing
weird weird system
but ended up alright
waste time

supposed to meet up for workplan for 2010 de
but ended up being POSTPONED!!!
only at 1643 after i called bl den i know
if i dun call i won't know
worst thing is
he can still tell me to inform the rest
IRRESPONSIBLE!!!

saw miss olivia on my way home
one of my fav faci in sem 1 :p
so long never see her le

tired tired
leg pain leg pain

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2010-01-18T23:41:00.000-08:00

finally home
after one whole day in school
lessons + talk + training

marketing today :)
B2B B2c
what we learnt today is about that
quite an easy topic
understand but dun really know how to apply :p

went to module selection talk after class
it was quite a waste of time
thought the talk would help me decide which modules to take in yr 2
in the end
all is pre-set for us
but quite good eh
dun have to worry i make the wrong decision
hehe

training after that
actually i just sat there and observe
scared my wound get worst
rather interesting to see people train and improve
give comments and praises :)

dinner and home sweet home

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2010-01-17T21:23:00.000-08:00

went jogging with aurina yesterday
i have to train up my stamina for wushu :p
healthy eh?morning jog...-.-

after that had lunch at amk hub
then accompanied her to shop
douby ghaut ---> orchard
but something bad bad happened to me :(
i had an accident on the escalator
due to my carelessness
my feet actually "hit" the sharp edge of the escalator
and that caused a hole on my heel
and blood all over my heel and slipper!!!
pain pain pain, first time i got scared myself because of an injury
couldn't walk properly, had to limp my way around
used a total of 8 plasters just because of that

she wanted to buy a schedule book
so went to shaw house to look for alison
i think i saw my primary sch science teacher
forgot how to spell her name, but i remembered her
i think she saw me and smiled at me and i smiled back :)
went home after that

tired tired tired
tomorrow is sch again
but i can't train due to the hole at my heel :(
hope i will recover soon :p

how i wish i can hear you say "you will have my support in whatever you do"
sleep think wonder love lust sing

2010-01-14T13:43:00.000-08:00

web and new media communications module today
just like any other modules
just that today
i think i made a fool of one of my teammate :p
(look at the pic for more information)
(remember to vote in my tagbox)

shall post more tonight :)
class is gonna end soon

2010-01-14T13:34:00.000-08:00

ryan's slide

my slide 1

my slide 2

WHICH IS BETTER FOR PRESENTATION?!?!

2010-01-13T22:01:00.000-08:00

haven't been posting for 2 days
due to lack of sleep
really serious case
i can fall asleep on the sofa just like that
and leave my lappy on
OMG OMG OMG...

i finally got my black RP jacket and the open house shirt :):)
dunno why im so happy over it :p

maths module today
faci is really sooooo nice
he actually went through what we have learnt and revised
and i really learnt alot alot today
XIE XIE FACI :D

got to sleep earlier le
or i'll become a walking zombie soon
endless stuff waiting for me to do
so many problems i have to settle
give me a time machine
i wanna go back to time where i dun have to worry about anything

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2010-01-10T23:10:00.000-08:00

why am i procrastinating
studies, wushu, people around me
lazy?maybe im too tired to do anything

responsibilities, commitment
what would happen if all these fall on you at the same time?
i think i will die

i dun like to make decisions
however, when i make decisions
i expect people to follow me
and i really mean follow
not i say A, you give me B

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2010-01-10T10:58:00.000-08:00

the badges i managed to collect :)
ahah!!look at "dong zhuo"(xiao ben) face

this little bear was from RP eh

2010-01-10T10:52:00.000-08:00

yesterday was performance for RP open house and celebration for coach's birthday

RP open house
open house performance is like for us to show what we are?
similar to fight club at reflections (wushu, silat and capoeira)
judo was not with us this time round
our performance notice was given quite last min
plus we're bored with our package 1 performace
so we came up with a "package 2" routine for sanda
a short and fast one
one that can be finished within seconds :p

we had to perform for 2 timeslots
so during the break between the 2 performance
i followed the rest around the sch to collect badges for the different schools and centre in RP
managed to collect a few
SHL, SAS, SOH, SIT, SEG,STA, CCC, SLA, CIE,CSM
thats all i got, i think i missed out quite a few badges
CCC was de hardest to get
had to perform to get it -.-

the performance was sooo fun
just that there were nobody to see us
sat morning + bad location
first time that i feel that performance can be fun :p

when we were leaving
something weird happen
everybody start to forget about their stuff
watches, shoe bags, handphones
OMG!!!
but in the end
we managed to get back what we forgot :p

Coach birthday celebration
went to bugis to meet wendi and the rest of the wushu people
the steamboat thing is somewhere near top one ktv
we had a special room to ourselves
cuz the shop was owned by coach de friend :)
eat eat eat
play play play
so nice and fun

after the celebration
we went to the arcade
some wanted to play dota
but not enough coms for us
10 of us :)
ended up waiting at the arcade and did nothing
after that, they decided to go shopping
but, suddenly ak emo
then all of the rest emo also
we sat at the steps near topshop
like some typical "bengs"

home sweet home
i realised i've been falling asleep with my lappy on
like twice in a row le
tired?or just not used to it?

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2010-01-08T22:43:00.000-08:00

today is FRIDAY!!!
cognitive lesson was fun today
had a new faci
he is soooo nice and fun
wish all the faci will be like him :)
occam's razor...is it a razor?LOL...

training + open house performance preview
rush rush rush
like some kinda train (choo choo)
new action + little practice = ....
some forgot moves, some just blacked out -_-"
hope everything will turn out nice tomorrow

tomorrow will be the open house performance + Coach Cai birthday celebration
i think gonna rush rush rush like shit again

i realised i have so many things i have yet to know even after joining wushu for almost a year
time to ask and learn :p
please co-operate with me
please please please...

im really nearing to the peak of breaking down le
can someone help me?
im so tired now
im afraid my new position as a vp in wushu might affect my studies
what should i do??

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2010-01-07T08:52:00.000-08:00

today class is so quiet
maybe its the rain
or just that everybody is tired of class
being in such a kind of class makes me tired too

i wish i could go back to w46M
where every sec is filled with laughter and smiles
maths UT2 this afternoon
dunno if im ready for it
got a D for my cognitive :(

I DON'T LIKE MY TEAM!!!
ACTUALLY ONLY ONE PERSON!!

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay

2010-01-06T23:28:00.000-08:00

i took you for granted
i made use of you like its always there
now you have hurt me and caused me pain
why are you doing this?
you are so important to me

"you" = my legs :p

2010-01-06T23:27:00.000-08:00

i miss my sem 1 09 class
they're one class which caused me endless laughter
saw clare in the afternoon at cwp
realised i haven been see-ing the rest of the W46Maniacs except for the BXRs
shall ask them out one of these days :)

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2010-01-06T15:25:00.000-08:00

AHAHA!!
today was maths lesson
differentiation and integration or something like that
OMG!!! almost died
quite hard eh?but then, i realised its just opposites :p
sooooo lucky we have a good maths faci, although he a bit joker

got news that we had to perform on open house on the 9th
so LAST MIN can!!!
ARGHH ARGHH ARGHH
after that have to go to bugis for Coach Cai birthday celebration

being in a committee in any organisation is not an easy job
you have to think of many many stuff and take care of the people involved
luckily i a little experience during my sec school :p

maths UT tomorrow
yet i haven study or revise a bit at all
die die die
maths UT2 = F

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2010-01-05T15:16:00.000-08:00

WHAT I AM TO PEOPLE AROUND ME?

2010-01-05T14:54:00.000-08:00

well, first post for 2010
cheers :)

a new year = new things for me
2009 alex = 2009 alex
2010 alex = new alex :)

rather bored new year
school school school
i dun feel like going to school
i wanna go out, slack, play and do nothing :p

today happens to be Aurina and Han Wei birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY :):):)
both of them are 19 this year
old people already... (-_-")

my limbs are hurting like mad
arms - sunburn
thighs - muscle ache (thanks to 1oo frog-jumps)
i realised im slacking so much
i must continue to start training again
TRAIN TRAIN TRAIN
NO MORE SLACKING!!!

anyway, i just wanna say something
its rather sad how people can expect so much from you
and taking everything into their own hands
i am a human too
i have feelings too
i wanna be taken care of
i wanna be loved
i wanna have my say in things involving me

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2009-08-10T11:21:00.000-07:00

finally something to blog about after so long
yesterday was national day

HAPPY 44th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!

went out with the guys, in addition of diyana, zasy and geraldine
planning to go see the fireworks
the guys are such a spotenous group of people

met at bishan for dinner
they suddenly said change of plans to watch movies at bishan??
but due to major objections from the girls, we went to the plan of going to see the fireworks

sadly, when we reached cityhall, and in the process of going up de escalator
i think i heard de sound of the fireworks

BOOM BOOM BOOM
when we finally reached the top
all we could see was smoke?
everywhere was so misty
then we knew we missed the fireworks :(

hw suggested that we catch a movie
girls (hangover) vs guys (GI JOE)
hahahahaha
ended up watching GI JOE
missed the timeslot for hangover :p

GI JOE is such a super nice movie
i personally think is better than transformers?
but the whole show is a bit too much of science and advance weapons
but still, IT IS VERY NICE!!!!

movie ended around 11+
slowly walked back to cityhall mrt
and realised that it is the last train service back to kranji

geraldine and i alighted at douby ghaut
guess wat
no more train service when we reached there
so we had to find an alternative way to get home

luckily i called my mum
and she got her friend to sent me and geraldine back home in a cab :p

gotta work later at 1
flyers distribution at jurong point
ahahaha!!!

i dreamt of you last night
how i wished it was true
i wish i wish

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2009-08-03T08:09:00.000-07:00

its has been a week since i lasted posted
nothing fun is happening to me nowadays
super no life :p

im so early today
or is my classmates that is late?
reached class at 7:58am
yet the class is still empty!!!

sem 1 is ending soon
and we're going to change class
all my beloved classmates
awww...

this means that UT3 is also coming
OMG!!!
study study study

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2009-07-27T07:46:00.000-07:00

hahaha
enterprise lesson today
office + formal wear
my shoes sux
stupid stupid

today is one month exactly away from my birthday :p
getting older le :o

life is whizzing past so quickly
everything is changing
friends, family, myself
hmm hmm

goodbyes once again
sleep think wonder love lust sing

2009-07-25T01:19:00.000-07:00

2009-07-25T01:18:00.000-07:00

went out with the guys today
exception of hw
injured his right arm
sorry sorry :p

went to ion at orchard
this supposedly new place?
walked around for monday's enterprise lesson attire
business + formal?
hmm hmm

1st stop - topshop
the guys started to try clothes juz because they feel like it?
woooo
bought singlet together will rb
jr bought a shirt
met up with sz

forgot the name of the second shop
very coincidence
guess who we saw?
GERALDINE!!!
joined us and went shopping together

after tat is more shopping and stuff
nothin much interesting

war of aozy and jr
burp VS fart
which is more powerful?
HAHAHA!!!

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2009-07-24T07:52:00.000-07:00

woooo
went ice skating with the guys yesterday
hahahaha
jr is de only one who can skate so elegantly?
while de other 4 of us are like struggling to stay on our feet
very nice eh
will be going there soon again :o

photos are on facebook
it will take years to upload onto my blog

im always so tired nowadays
wonder what is happening to me
dying soon i guess?hahaha

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2009-07-23T07:52:00.000-07:00

YOU IMBECILES!!

2009-07-20T23:50:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERALDINE!!

so many birthdays in this month

soon it will be my turn :p

sorry no photos yet

will upload soon

wushu training today

punch kick punch kick

aching everywhere now :(

i shall not be weak

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2009-07-20T07:20:00.000-07:00

so much has happened recently
not going to say anything
flimsiness of life

humans are weird
they will only cherish things when they are taken away from them
hmm hmm

so so so tired
lacking in sleep

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2009-07-17T07:25:00.000-07:00

WWIII almost broke out yesterday
if i didn't keep my cool did what is ithink is suitable :p

is getting attention of someone or people really so important?
hmm hmm
if you wan attention
do it de right way
not at the expense of your friends and yourself

im gonna be non-chalant
its a good thing
HAHAHAHA!!

SLEEP think wonder love lust sing

2009-07-15T20:03:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KHAIRUL!!!

you are officially 20!!

grow old le ar

dun be too sad :p

today was communications

had a weird weird prob

allowed us to do the prob over 5 days

wooooo!!!

i made de wrong decision

contradictions!!

treat people with sincerity

SLEEP THINK wonder love lust sing

2009-07-15T07:40:00.000-07:00

birds of a feather flocks together

do you even feel anything for de people around you?
insecurity?hatred?

i am who i am
i dun need anybody to judge me

IF YOU'RE NOT HAPPY

COME!!!

2009-07-14T20:05:00.000-07:00

feeling so sick-ish now
tired, aching all over
but no worries, temp is normal :p

maths UT today
had some prob with my ut client
so had to do on paper
prevented me from falling asleep eh
hahahaha
but dunno how to do still

dog?i think so
i shall be nice

i miss AC2

SLEEP think wonder love lust sing

2009-07-14T07:44:00.000-07:00

smiles doesn't mean happines
approachable doesn't mean friendly

things that you do irks me totally
=.="

SLEEP think wonder love lust sing

2009-07-12T18:43:00.000-07:00

watched hancock and studied a little for enterprise today

hancock is such a meaningful movie
at least to me
i've realised something from the movie
people need to be appreciated and loved
this 2 things cannot be taken away from one's life
or the person will be miserable and lonely

no matter what you do everyday
at the end of each day
sit in front of the mirror and asked yourself if you have done de right thing

SLEEP think wonder love lust sing
thinking missing loneliness

2009-07-11T23:41:00.000-07:00

2009-07-11T23:22:00.000-07:00

WOOOO
went to WILD WILD WET with the guys today

met the guys in the afternoon
realised aozy is not good at spreading messages
he will sent you a message you will not understand
met jr at katib den off to wdls to meet rb and aozy
when i have 58 that goes to pasir ris directly?!?

reahed e-hub around 12+ 1?
went to arcade a while to see see and played de bb game
hw came a while later

went to eat at tis chicken rice place
heard is quite nice
but personally i think it's just average
rice is nice, chicken is normal, barley drink is super diluted and tasteless

off to WWW
saw tis girl who acted in "I not stupid 2"

had problems looking for lockers
and when we found spaces
lockers a bit siao siao de
had to use $4 instead of $2 to use the lock
wasted $2
stupid stupid
we all joked that they can use the lockers to make money instead :p

play play play
see see see
woooo
soooo interesting :p
hahahaha

went off around 6+ 7?
ate at the food court just opposite WWW
walked around and guess who we saw?
ah nan!!!
hahaha
such a small small world
chatted a bit den went off

when we reached outside
it was raining!!!
so ma fan can
but luckily hw brought an umbrella
sheltered aozy to bustop first
but due to over-crowding at the bustop
we decided to leave aozy there while waiting for the people to disperse :p

off to wdls interchange
met wl and chatted a while
took bus to katib
and home
tired tired tired

pot calling de kettle black again =.="
SLEEP think wonder love lust sing

Random photos :p

2009-07-09T07:36:00.000-07:00

2009-07-07T18:57:00.001-07:00

science module today
about some cells thing
managable but i dun really understand :p

went to pizza hut with guys
saw kenneth toh...with a bunch of girls
wooooo

home after tat
got to study for cognitive ut and do rj
so boring!!!

Please learn to CONTROL yourself
SELF-CONTROL!!
SLEEP think wonder love lust sing

2009-07-06T18:58:00.000-07:00

wooo
finally back to school after one long week of e-learning
though everybody looked so tired
they seemed so excited :p

enterprise today
learnt about planning on finances and money stuff
rather easy? but ppt was not well done i guess?

Life is short, 7 days is LONGGGG!!!! "SARAH MARIE PASCOE"(MOTHER SARAH!!!!)

OMG!!!
RB WENT TO MEDIACORP TO ACT!!!!
sooooo cool lo

went to breeks with rb aozy jol clare and jr
rb joined us a while later
hmm
not a bad place to dine
just that portions given a little too tiny :p

went to gym after that
met hw at the gym
saw this super HUGE guy in red bull shirt
so we called him red bull
his muscle and everything is like so big la
and best thing is
he can lift up like 260kg of weight?
just that he sound like some "exhaust" pipe
that kinda weird weird sound :p
hahahahahaha!!!!

went to cwp for desert
met up with wan ling binglong and ace
they went to CC(civic centre)
den we went home

im tired and sleepy and lonely :p
SLEEP think wonder love lust sing

2009-07-04T14:06:00.000-07:00

im so lonely :(

2009-07-03T19:24:00.000-07:00

another day of e-learning
ARRR!!!!
TERRIBLE!!!
i really have to thank clarrisa for all her help
THANK YOU CLARRISA!!! :p

practically not doing anything at home
bored bored bored
UT2 is coming next week
is like so fast?!?!
waaaa!!!

excuses everytime?
such coincidence?
dun make me not believe you

2009-07-02T07:44:00.000-07:00

so no mood to blog nowadays
so so tired le

overnight at hw house de night before
with alex oh and rb
jr is always de one not around :p

i think hw influence too much rb le
now he also like recording videos
hahahaha

hw had to go meet marion
so rb alex came to my house to bathe and rest
den went amk hub to meet jr
hw came with marion

next few things we did :
1)pool
2)played basketball thing at de arcade
3)dota with them
4)dinner

went home after tat
too tired le so didn't stay up :p

its de case of pot calling kettle black?
its happening once again?
please dun do things that will make people think you are an idiot =.="

SLEEP think wonder love lust sing

2009-07-02T07:43:00.000-07:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2009-07-01T03:10:00.000-07:00

i hate tis kinda feeling
ARRR!!!
disappointments again

bad bad bad
maybe you dun really care
its all about me and myself right?
im too gullible :(

stupid me!!!

sleepless nights awaiting me
hope i'll be able to get over tis

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2009-06-30T21:42:00.000-07:00

rong bin is pixel man!!!

2009-06-30T02:03:00.000-07:00

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you...endlessly
And when your mad cause you lost a game
Forget im waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Because the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know
And when you forget that we had a date
That look that u give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what
That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
Thats when I love you
When I love you
No matter what
No matter what...

2009-06-29T23:50:00.000-07:00

Many days I've spent

Drifting on through empty shores

Wondering what's my purpose

Wondering how to make me strong

If you didn't notice - you mean everything

Quickly I'm learning to love again

All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Second chances: they don't ever matter, people never change

You either stand or you fall

When your will is broken

SLEEP THINK WONDER LOVE LUST SING

2009-06-29T23:47:00.000-07:00

2009-06-29T23:41:00.000-07:00

ahahaha
e-learning for enterprise was rather bad today
had a lot of things to complete
plus a super hard rj which i dun understand?

im so pig nowadays
i think the sofa has become my second bed
hahahaha
been falling asleep on the sofa for so many times le
like afternoon nap?while doing my e-learning?

im so tired of staying at home
im so bored of staying at home
someone please ask me out!!!
im gonna die staying at home

there are so many things inside me
yet i can't seem to say them out
ARRRR =.=
silence is golden

2009-06-29T12:01:00.000-07:00

I don't know what's right and what's real anymore

And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore

When do you think it will all become clear?'

cause I'm being taken over by the fear

如果我能看得見

生命也許完全不同

可能我想要的我喜歡的我愛的

都不一樣

SLEEP THINK WONDER LOVE LUST SING

2009-06-29T07:17:00.000-07:00

im awake!!
after only 4hrs of sleep :p
wonder if im able to continue like tis
hahahaha

enterprise e-learning today
bad bad bad
as long its e-learning i dun like :p

im hungry im hungry

shall post again later :)
what am i now?

SLEEP THINK WONDER LOVE LUST SING

Random paragraphs from songs to become 1 song... :p

2009-06-29T01:53:00.000-07:00

If you think love is blind

That I wouldn't see the flaws between the lines

Surprised, that I caught you out

On every single time that you lied

Did you think that every time I see you I would cry?

No not me, not I, not I

But if you wanna cry

Cry on my shoulder

If you need someone who cares for you

If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder

Yes I show you what real love can do

No matter what you say about love

I keep coming back for more

Keep my hand in the fire

Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life

I learn every time I bleed

We live and we learn to take

One step at a time

There's no need to rush

It's like learning to fly

Or falling in love

2009-06-28T16:49:00.000-07:00

2009-06-28T16:42:00.000-07:00

today is just another day of rotting at home
3 more days of rotting and e-learning at home
i wanna go out
bored bored bored
common topic when talking to people now :p

woke up like 11+ 12 today
slept at some holy hour at 4+ yesterday night?
had mac for breakfast cum lunch

alex oh suggested to go self training today at CCK
but didn't go
quite far plus im home quarantined?
bad bad bad :(

hope that everybody is getting better :)

sleep think wonder love lust sing

2009-06-28T01:49:00.000-07:00

rot at home for the whole of today
practically doing nothing much
me my laptop and my bed
BORING!!!

good news : my classmates are recovering fast :)
bad news : dinesh has dengue :(

there will be times when you feel small
just take it tat you're learning
NOBODY is perfect

SLEEP think wonder love lust SING

2009-06-27T11:28:00.000-07:00

ahahaha

its a sat
but i have to stay at home due to the H1N1 thing
sorry danny
last min tell you i cannot make it
really sorry

wonder wat is going to happen to me till 3rd july
e-learning and rotting
I DUN WAN E-LEARNING
IT SUX!!! :p
e-learning doesn't work for me
individual vs group
which is better?
GROUP of course!!!

feel like going kbox
sing sing sing
just me or maybe with my guys(im not gay)
!!!!!

take care people
H1N1 is spreading fast

SLEEP think wonder love lust SING

2009-06-26T23:23:00.000-07:00

OMG!!!
H1N1 is coming so near
going to doc with the guys tomorrow
just to be on the safe side

went to causeway point for dinner
supposed to meet the wushu people
they made me wait for 40 mins...40 mins!!!!
but used to waiting
so walked around causeway
guess who i saw?
rb alex oh and angus
so went to eat together

home after tat

to my w46m : please take good care of yourself :)

SLEEP THINK wonder love lust sing

2009-06-26T17:32:00.000-07:00

cognitive today
ws questions is like
SOOOO HARD
maybe due to the fact that i didn't pay enough attention in class :(
skipped quite a no. of questions

so sleepy today
can actually do ws halfway and den fall asleep on the sofa?!?!?!
getting old le
hahahaha

take care people
more and more people getting sick
drink more water, rest more

SLEEP THINK wonder love lust sing

2009-06-26T08:16:00.000-07:00

im online so early today
at a holy hour of like 6+
get ready for cognitive e-learning

mac breakfast is waiting for me :)

sooooo tired
sleeping later and later each day
let me get used to it and i'll be fine
health and equally important

oh ya
sad news
MJ is dead :(

SLEEP think wonder love lust sing

2009-06-25T19:30:00.000-07:00

first day of e-learning at home

woke up at like 6+
so super tired
cuz i slept at like 2?

went to meet hw jr rb
RP---->AMKSS
to see de ncc guys ROD parade

so proud when i saw them marching off the parade square
my platoon has finished their service to ncc!!
saw sir azmi
he slim down alot alot

went to hub after that
finally!!!
got to watch transformers
though i didn't watch the first part :p
starting was nice
but towards de ending i almost fell asleep
tired plus a little boring i guess?
quite a nice movie la :p

worst thing that happened during the movie
guess wat
rb suddenly said he wanted to go to the toilet
when he exciting part is coming up!!!
but went with him in de end (im a good friend :p)
hahahaha

went home after that
tired tired tired

so many people falling sick nowadays
take care take care
health is important :)

2009-06-24T21:49:00.000-07:00

was supposed to watch transformers with the guys today de
but due to no seats le
so didn't watch :(
bad bad bad

finished rj right after class
good boy eh? :p

jr suggested to go play frisbee
so went to this grass area near koufu to see see
ended up not playing due to rain and attire

had dinner den went to the library
to see the guys sleep!!!!
WTH!!!
dunno why we were there
like wasting time?!?!

went off after tat
met up with lw
the rest went to cwp
chatted with lw and realised so many things actually happened to me
sad sad sad sad sad
MR STORY-TELLER
TELL ME A BEDTIME STORY PLEASEEEE!!!!

2009-06-24T08:22:00.000-07:00

everybody is special in their own way
and im just ike any other people
so im special too :)

please do not take me for granted
i have feelings and emotions too
@!#!@#@!
@$@!$#!
@!$!@@$
@$#$#%^*

2009-06-23T19:52:00.000-07:00

realised this whole thing is so childish afterall
forgive and forget
im just gonna do that

hw, please dun get so sensitive to whatever i say to you
anywhere you feel unhappy
tell me, lets talk things out
i dun wish to talk about this matter anymore
BFF eh?

lets all get on with life
and to whoever that caused this stupid misunderstanding
#@%#%@%!!!

jr rb me you alex oh
we together as one right?
no internal conflict :)

2009-06-23T15:38:00.000-07:00

MHD Rong Bin

2009-06-23T14:16:00.000-07:00

fragile glass heart

2009-06-22T23:45:00.000-07:00

now its just me against the world

2009-06-22T22:42:00.000-07:00

SPEECHLESS

2009-06-21T22:13:00.000-07:00

just wanna blog before i sleep
realised im not good at keeping my own emotions to myself
people ask a bit and i tell them everything about what is happening le

suppression
holding back
keeping to myself

how i wish i can let it all out
but who can i say it to?
the wall?floor?or my pillow?
i just wanted to say i missed you

2009-06-21T11:33:00.000-07:00

im awake!!
had many many weird dreams last night
really weird
but i dun remember them now :p

over a night rest
things are like sorted out for me now
but still a little confused
i hope i made the right decision
anyway, no time for regrets

going to stay home de whole day again
slack and slack and slack

wushu training tomorrow
heard from coach that training will be all about fitness and body conditioning
i dun look forward to cramps and muscle aches.
i miss you

2009-06-20T20:25:00.000-07:00

guess words fell on deaf ears
you were right
irresponsibilities

i dun like things going on tis way
you dseserve someone better

everything is going to be new for me again
i had enough of everything le
second time tis is happening to me
fucking second time!!

online but dun have anything to do
loneliness once again
thanks to YOU!!!
i dun wish to HATE you
so please dun make me do tat

realised whenever i have things to say
i can't say it to anybody
too much distrust formed inside me

i've made the decision to FORGET for once
but i will not FORGIVE
goodbyes

2009-06-20T01:06:00.000-07:00

wushu training
all about legs stuff
kicking kicking and nothing else about kicking
i want you, yet i can't do or say anything to you
went to watch ghost of girlfriend past with some of the wushu people, rb, hw and alex oh
quite a nice movie i guess?
juz tat when i was watching halfway
i started to think of a lot of things
so was hoping tat the show would end quickly

im running so slowly
emo-ness caught up with me nowadays...again
feeling of dun feel like doing anything
ARRRR!!!
tired + emo
bad bad bad
why does these scenes keep appearing in front of me
i feel so jealous
why can't i be the one?

2009-06-19T14:22:00.000-07:00

im feeling so weird
im feeling so weird
im feeling so weird

ARRRR!!!!

changing changing changing
change change change
emo-ness!!!
i wanna forget everything
nothing should be left in my brain!!

2009-06-19T07:56:00.000-07:00

friends?girlfriends?family?
which will choose if you only had a choice?

I'll be selfish and just choose myself

i hate the way things are going now
i have so many things inside me
yet i can't choose to say them out
maybe I've changed
to become a person who is no longer who wait
someone who will try new things no matter the consequences
someone who is trying to forget everything
someone who is slowly turning "emotionally weak"
patience don't help anymore

2009-06-18T23:51:00.000-07:00

hehehehe
supposed to watch movies with de wushu people today de
but we ended up watching wushu video in the game room in RP
quite funny
see those jokers suddenly very pro

now some members of wushu have a bad habit
grab people on their shoulder and press the muscle there
OUCHH!!!PAIN CAN!!!
i'll remember who did to me
and almost all has no resistance to tickling
HAHAHAHAHA
you people are sooooo dead!!
:p

"true friends stab you in the front"
sorry hw
if i too straight-forward

dinner and home
tired tired
hope i'll be able to hold out

history is invading present
i've thought it over
the solution is " "

Alex oh quest for his slippers

2009-06-18T07:36:00.001-07:00

2009-06-18T07:36:00.000-07:00

in class now
super super duper duper TIRED!!
shall sleep earlier next time

getting more "closer" to the wushu people
meeting up, dinner
hahahahaha
共和武术队！哈！

realised im so problematic nowadays
prob = me too non-chalant
when de same thing repeatly happen on me
i get bored easily = i dun care

random things in class :p

2009-06-17T07:34:00.001-07:00

2009-06-17T07:34:00.000-07:00

currently in school
all alone in class
bad thing about coming to school so early
no idiot would come to school as early as me :p

have cognitive UT today
thanks to the UTQ agent that crash after we took our UT
so retake... =.="

still as tired as always
but i deserve it?
for sleeping later and later each day
one day i might end up not sleeping :p

I CUT MY HAIR!!!
and it looks really weird
maybe im not used to it yet
HAHAHAHAHA!!!

2009-06-13T18:00:00.000-07:00

im feeling so emo nowadays
plus tired...omg!!! dying soon
luckily have my guys in jj clan to accompany me

went to hw house yesterday with alex oh
ended up with only 2 of us when dick said he is coming
rb too emo over his laptop le

time really flies when you are enjoying
holidays are ending
school is starting!!!
cognitive UT is also coming
ARRRR!!!

is home de best place someone can ever live it
im beginning to doubt this phrase
no, i guess....
if i have the ability to stay out, i would
but sadly, i don't

hope things get better for me after school starts
or i'll really become insane

2009-06-12T12:45:00.000-07:00

2009-06-11T15:52:00.000-07:00

WUSHU ROCKS!!!

im finally home after my wushu camp
soooooooo tired
i think i slept less than 10hrs in 3 days?
dying le

my whole body is aching like nobody business
stretching, running, wushu moves and san da
fully packed with activities in the 3 days
non-stop :)

though the camp is very tiring
its also VERY FUN
training together with the wushu people
them training san da with us
sooooo nice
we get to learn things which we don't usually learn in normal trainings :)

my impression of the whole of wushu IG is so different
its no longer a cold IG where people just practice their moves
its also a very warm ig where all of the people really care for one another
despite in pain or fun(all the stretchings)

also got to know lot of people
those year 2s and 3s
got "bonded" through the training :)
IM TEAM 1!!!!

overall its a very nice and enriching camp
senior taught us alot
we learn a lot from one another
physically tired, mentally strong

WE ARE WUSHU IG!!!

2009-06-09T07:00:00.000-07:00

currently in a super sleepy mood
going for wushu camp later
luckily i have the guys to accompany me
or i'll die of boredom :p

hope its going to be fun
and i don't injure myself :)
history and future
history is past
but will future end up in history?

2009-06-08T20:34:00.000-07:00

2009-06-08T20:26:00.000-07:00

都可以
随便的　　
你说的　
我都愿意去　
小火车　
摆动的旋律　（回憶裡滿足的旋律）　

都可以　
是真的　　
你说的　
我都会相信　
因为我　
完全信任你

细腻的喜欢　
毛毯般的厚重感
晒过太阳　
熟悉的安全感
分享的汤　
我们俩支汤匙一个碗
左心房　
暖暖的好保暖

我想说其实你很好　
你自己却不知道　（你不知道）　
真心的对我好　
不要求回报　
爱一个人希望他过更好　
他从心里暖暖的　

你对自己更重要细腻的喜欢　
你手掌的厚实感　
什么困难　
都觉得有希望
我哼著歌　
你自然的就接下一段　
我知道　
暖暖就在胸膛

我想说其实你很好
你自己却不知道
从来都很低调
自信心不高
爱一个人希望他过更好
他从心里暖暖的
你对自己更重要
我也希望變更好

i still remember this
do you?

2009-06-08T20:25:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!!!
mum birthday today

went out together with my mum and sis
ate at new york new york
kbox after that
sing sing sing
bought 2 tiny cake for my mum
i love the taste of the cake :p
kbox kbox kbox
made me think about you
memories of us singing together
:"(

2009-06-07T16:47:00.000-07:00

feeling so outta of place nowadays
dun feel like moving
dun feel like talking
so emo emo emo
ARRRR!!!
didn't know you are so much affected
sorry